Saturday, March 04, 2006

I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday....

"Cuz your evil and you lie, and if you should die, I might feel slightly sad but I won't cry"

Ouch. Morrissey must have been in a really black mood the day he wrote that one.

I thought I was on the upswing until the last few weeks dropped some major stress in my lap. Let's just say renovating a house appears to be a horribly costly and wrong thing to do. I am weeks from finishing my home in DC and low and behold I am now in stop work order h.e.doubletoothpicks.

My second child, Ellie, is due to come home in April or May. I freak out at all the cash flowing the wrong way and then I have to take a deep breathe and listen to others who have REAL problems. Like illness. Like NO house except the hope for a FEMA trailer. Well I certainly have upper NW problems as they used to say in DC. So, I will find a way to get through and make it all work out and someday it will be in the past. Someday - oh yeah (I have juke box in my head - not sure what that tune is but I can TOTALLY hear it - can you?).

Meanwhile - today is my birthday. Please don't ask - let's say I am just shy of a major milestone and Teen Beat hasn't called for quite a LOOOONG time. So I went to see my dear old friend Dame Edna last night at the Warner Theatre. She asked me to tea after the final curtain but I was oh so busy, what with Heath Ledger eager to see the sites with me in the limo outside. Well ok, maybe not, but I did really go to the show possum and she was a hoot. Laughter is always helpful.

I also cancelled my next studio date (and my therapy, and my latte pilates classes, and my macrame, and my alpine slalom lessons) so I can squeak through this time. I am bummed to have to put the dates off because I was starting to see a finished CD for summer release. My last date I worked with Marco and Amikaeyla again and it was killer. I am so psyched about the album and I think I need to go back to my idea about putting out singles only until the songs pile up.

Well - writing this has somehow cheered me slightly. I am going to see a film tonight with my hubby and then a fantastic lavish dinner someplace akin to Arby's but with NICE tablecloths. :-) It's only money baby. It comes it goes and the energy of it is all that matters. Use it for good and don't try to hang on too tight.

I have to find out what the heck I want this blog to be. I really don't know yet - but hey thanks for reading it.